Bittersweet Memories

Bittersweet Memories Life is not fair in many ways, but some parts of our lives can be controlled in order for life to be a bit more bearable; therefore, a time machine is so much needed so that we can take back actions that can alter our lives forever. The problem wasn’t that I made a huge mistake that would drive my ex-girlfriend away, but rather it was meeting my soul mate too early on into my college experience where immaturity took over and made me do ignorant things that I would regret for the rest of my life. The fact that she was my first girlfriend did not help my case, and I knew that my novice experience with girls would only crumble my relationship into small pieces of paper that would be burned and the only thing left would be ashes. Honestly I can’t completely blame my relationship inexperience for my ex-girlfriend vanishing from my life as if she never existed; I wouldn’t be an adult if I didn’t admit to having had several chances but each chance wasn’t taken advantage of because I was stuck in a state of immaturity that wouldn’t let me be me. Thinking about it, it felt as if I was in a different world where imperfection was accepted and being you was perfectly fine because your better half would never leave as long as we were both honest and faithful with each other. Soon after I woke up from this dream and into cruel reality where the love of my life wasn’t resting next to me; thereafter, I would become a kid again and cry like I have never cried before knowing that my life wouldn’t be the same. The true source that caused the break-up was alcohol and my partying, I just couldn’t control myself. It was as if I had chosen alcohol over her, but in reality I didn’t but my actions expressed otherwise. Therefore, in my life alcohol has been an honest mistake that took away my ex-girlfriend, Stephanie, and has caused me to be a walking mess at times that only attracts