While reading 'Ang Nalalabi Rito' by Nikka Osorio, I have felt a roller coaster of emotions. Today, the class listened to her explain her book and she shared a lot of her insights to us. First, I want to take note of what she said about the book: Nikka said her aim for the book was to bring only light emotions for the reader. I beg to differ; I kind of found the book to be a little bit heavy with emotions. I am not saying that it's a bad thing. For me, the book is really great because it made me ponder and divulge my emotions. In that sense, I sometimes can't help but think that if not most of the time, the author seems sad. I do not mean to offend; it is just how I interpreted the readings. I also want to emphasize on how the author gave us her insight on how she writes. She said that, for he, writing is like entering a labyrinth. There are a lot of ways inside, and sometimes you will not notice how deep you are inside and how long you have been there but as she said, like writing, she knows that she is done writing when she gets there. She doesn’t worry about how long or how deep she is in writing because when she gets there, she knows. And She knows that there is a finish. After hearing that, it made me think that the challenges we tackle in life are much like labyrinths. We don’t know how long it will last and we don’t know how deep we are in but we can be sure that it has an ending. I would like to also apply that way of thinking in my life after hearing that. I want to think that with every challenge that comes along my way, I would like to always remember that there would always be various approaches towards the problem and that even if there are uncertainties, I should always remember that every problem has an end and every challenge has a way out. I have also heard the different interpretations of the author regarding the poems she wrote but I also have my own interpretations in which I will put them here.
A lot of the poems I read in the book have struck my emotions. It made me think a lot of what I am feeling and how life revolves around me. One of the poems that I liked the most is the one titled Imahen, and the way I interpret the poem is that it is about a person seeing someone from a far and admiring the person from a distance. I also see it the admirer not being able to go near the person. It may be because, in the poem, the person is afraid or shy, or maybe the admirer is unable to because the person is no longer there or the person is now unreachable and that the only way for the admirer to reach the person is to find someone who knows the person and let that someone pass a message to the person so that the person will know of the admiration being offered. Upon reading the next page, the poem was made clearer by the explanation of the author but what stuck on me the most is where the poem was based upon: the Automat by Edward Hopper. I read in her piece that beside the artwork, it says that the painting is an image of sadness but it is not a sad image. After reading that, my focus swayed from the poem to the painting. It made me ponder why it was said to be an image of sadness but not a sad image. Deep inside, I could relate to that statement, I could feel that image of sadness also being portrayed through me. I could feel the same image of sadness coming from the painting because I think I also emit the same image of sadness at times. I also read a few about the painting and some critics claim that the image is a portrayal of alienation. The way I see it, sometimes people feel alienated even in one’s own country but not in other’s country, but it could also work vice-versa.
Another poem that I really liked is the poem entitled Ang Nalalabi Rito. The last stanza of the poem goes like this: ng alaala ng wala pa noon, sa alaala ng wala na roon. The last stanza made me think, I know the last stanza may be as simple as it is already but I wanted to know what the author really meant...